Christmas comes but once a year.

Christmas.


it's the time of year when the weather gets colder and families get "closer".


decorations come out and trees (normally, I'm not saying that everyone has them) go up. They have lights, ornaments and presents.


Lights adorn houses, animatronic animals invade yards and carols spill out of many stores speakers.



Now....I like this holiday.



for the most part.



But...what I've listed? That's just the aesthetics about it.


Kids go nuts telling their parents what they want, demanding the best. I'm not saying I've never done it. I have.

In fact I know that I've said that I wanted things that I know we can't afford at the moment.


Kids demanding so much from their parents, causing the latter to get frazzled and try their hardest to make their children, for fear that their children will 'hate' them. Even though the parents themselves know that the 'hate' is a passing, it still breaks their hearts to hear the words uttered from the mouths.



So they fight, bicker and try their hardest to make their families happy; all the while they are missing the point of it.



Christmas is supposed to bring people together and more times than not, it ends up ripping people apart.

People fight because they didn't try to get a better deal. They argue that it wasn't the right one, or that they didn't pay attention. It only rips us farther apart, and I know from personal experience that I have to put on a facade of happiness, so people won't ask what was wrong. Then you go home and the ripping continues.


I ramble and jump around in my thoughts, and I know these facts. But all of this does have a point.



What I'm trying to say is, try to stop all the demanding of what you want. Take the time to breathe in, and enjoy what you've got. Be thankful for things that you normally wouldn't be thankful for. Take life slower and enjoy the little things. Like a bird trilling in the morning, or, if you're lucky, take pictures of the snow before it turns to mush and goes away. Laugh more, and live life to it's fullest.


I'm going to reiterate something that you've all probably heard before, but it really is important. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I hope that I'll be able to look back and smile. Smile because I have memories of things that I know I will never get to live again.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.



Live in the moment, and you'll be happy. Don't focus on finding the perfect anything, because there is no such thing. There never will be. But in life, find the most imperfect perfect thing, and you'll be happy.


Sincerely,

V


p.s. feel free to let me know what you think about the season.

No need for an introduction?

I guess I'll start by telling some things about myself.


I am nineteen.


I don't know when I was conceived, but I was born on June 28th.


I have a mother, father and older brother. The latter is a Marine.


I'm from Texas and have lived here my whole life. I probably won't move, but we'll see what the future holds.


my hair changes as often (or more than) the southern Texas weather.


People tell me I have a great smile, most of the time it's a fake one.

I tend to write my feelings and thoughts down more often than speaking them, because it's hard for me to express my emotions through words. I get that from my dad. My brother is the same way.

I don't know what else to say, because I like keeping a lot of things to my self, for fear of abandonment.


I have many names, the one you'll know me by is V.


I'm determined to cause chaos.